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Aug. 21st, 2019 11:08 amThings continue to go goingly. I've done a lot of work this month to rebuild my sacred space. I had established it as preparation for trauma work with my therapist but I've let it get a bit unfocused lately. I intend to do a clean sweep of it and then remake it only with the things I really have a reason to include. I recognize that I have some things there just because I don't have anywhere else to put them, which is not good.
I've been reading Tarot and the Tree of Life which is blowing my mind. I've been wanting to learn more about Qabbalah and the Tarot for a while and this book just nails it for me. I don't normally like to turn to books whenever I meditate with cards but this one is the exception. So good.
My therapist actually wanted me to stop researching Palestinian folklore for a bit since the books are all really racist. It was wearing me down. But then being Palestinian has become such a topic of conversation now, with Rashida Tlaib's whole thing going on. My friends sometimes wish I wouldn't engage with it but I literally can't avoid it even when I want to. I've also been banned from entering Israel- I was 6 years old. My dad was banned since he was 10, and he was born there. We're Palestinian, so we're de facto "demographic threats" to Israel.
I will say for now is I'm waiting for folks to see how all of the fascist, neo-nazi forces in the US are aligned with Israel and sit with that, and consider what Palestinians are and have been saying about their lived experiences. The Stern Gang, the Zionist gang that hunted down my family in Palestine, had written to the Nazis proposing an alliance. They went on to evolve into the IDF- the Israeli military, and are seen as heroes of "the war of independence." So while many are perplexed at, for example, a radio host in Israel dubbing Trump "King of Israel" today, for how loved he is there, it makes absolute sense to me. Ethnonationalists gonna love ethnonationalists.
Speaking of Zionism, and of rebuilding sacred space, I've been thinking about the immense spiritual damage Christian Zionism did, and how I can rebuild. I suppose it's something I can talk to my therapist about while we do the trauma work. How to reestablish a healthy spiritual life. I can start by meditating on what was nourishing about my faith in God, and go from there. Something like that.
I've been reading Tarot and the Tree of Life which is blowing my mind. I've been wanting to learn more about Qabbalah and the Tarot for a while and this book just nails it for me. I don't normally like to turn to books whenever I meditate with cards but this one is the exception. So good.
My therapist actually wanted me to stop researching Palestinian folklore for a bit since the books are all really racist. It was wearing me down. But then being Palestinian has become such a topic of conversation now, with Rashida Tlaib's whole thing going on. My friends sometimes wish I wouldn't engage with it but I literally can't avoid it even when I want to. I've also been banned from entering Israel- I was 6 years old. My dad was banned since he was 10, and he was born there. We're Palestinian, so we're de facto "demographic threats" to Israel.
I will say for now is I'm waiting for folks to see how all of the fascist, neo-nazi forces in the US are aligned with Israel and sit with that, and consider what Palestinians are and have been saying about their lived experiences. The Stern Gang, the Zionist gang that hunted down my family in Palestine, had written to the Nazis proposing an alliance. They went on to evolve into the IDF- the Israeli military, and are seen as heroes of "the war of independence." So while many are perplexed at, for example, a radio host in Israel dubbing Trump "King of Israel" today, for how loved he is there, it makes absolute sense to me. Ethnonationalists gonna love ethnonationalists.
Speaking of Zionism, and of rebuilding sacred space, I've been thinking about the immense spiritual damage Christian Zionism did, and how I can rebuild. I suppose it's something I can talk to my therapist about while we do the trauma work. How to reestablish a healthy spiritual life. I can start by meditating on what was nourishing about my faith in God, and go from there. Something like that.
